MEAN WHAT YOU SAY !!!!!

During some quiet time with the Lord, I asked Him to let me be a blessing to someone today....I assumed in my own mind it would involve my grand dogs , or I really wasn't being honest with God, and didn't really mean what I had said!

Literally, a couple of seconds after I had uttered my proud prayer, the phone rang. It was a call from someone I hadn't seen for many years . This was someone that was a sandpaper person in my life so I was immediately on high alert and defensive. We had a little small talk, and then she said, "I need to ask a favor of you"

My normal response in my thought bubble was NO!!!!!!

I really didn't want to do any "favors", but" I said If I am able..... " and she explained that a friend of hers had a broken wrist and needed a ride to an ortho hospital . Would I take her? She told me her friend was rather difficult , very fearful and a germaphob . I reluctantly agreed and was given this persons number to call. As we were ending our conversation my friend said "thank you for being a BLESSING !! Well, it didn't take a rocket scientist to figure this one out! I realized in that moment, what a hypocrite I was!

I repented of my false pride and offensive heart. I realized that I need to mean what I say and not pray with my own selfish agenda that wouldn't make me uncomfortable!

I had my own plans for My day which didn't involve leaving my house.I quickly called this person and explained that I could help her out  . I was told the time of her appt. and where to pick her up.  .She told me she doesn't allow anyone in her house because of germs and came out to my car .My thought bubble was thinking thoughts like "how will she even come in my car, then".

Well. this was an opportunity to be a blessing so I asked God to be strong in my weakness! 

We had a little conversation and explained some of her fears.I asked if I could pray for her and she was receptive! Before she left my car I asked her who was picking her up. She told me to just wait for her...So I did...   one and a half hours.. I guess being a blessing isn't always convenient . When her appt. was finished she got in the car and told me she was having surgery the next week, and asked me to bring her to the hospital!       I was shocked but told her that I would be available.... the hospital is almost an hour from my home!Then as we were heading back to her house, she asked me to take her shopping..I was starting to get a little antsy to get home as I had Three dogs to let out.(as Im dog sitting for my daughter....a great big hairy shedding great Pyrenees). After she shopped , I dropped her off and she said thanks for being a Blessing! She had me carry her groceries to her garage and told me to leave them there, and when I did she reached in and took a salmon out of her bag and told me she got that for me because she knew I wouldn't take money She had no idea ,but I do love salmon!!

After I got home, I started to laugh! God has a sense of humor and He wants us to mean what we say! He is so good that even when correcting us,He turns around and blesses us!!!

Thank you, Lord that you bless us to be a blessing ! Thank you for loving me and understanding me in spite of myself!! 

Proverbs 11;25

'whoever brings blessing to others will be enriched, one who waters will himself be watered.'

 The quarantine continues ...........

2020 ! I thought this year would be the year of clear vision ....as in 20/20 vision. I realize that we still have  four months until we hit 2021 , but wow!

In the middle of a pandemic, divided nation, to mask or not to mask, and what does blm and Antifa really stand for??? Many friendships have been destroyed and businesses have suffered! It's been a year most of us cannot wait to see end!

I need to remind myself of positive things going on...not the violence or police defunding , political unrest, etc. but instead  looking at the good and great things happening. Right now, people are having to determine what they believe and to know if they have a faith that is worth living for and dying for!              

In my own life, this year has had many ups and downs...heartbreaks and mountaintops !!!!  

We had five of our children graduate this year......two became R.N.s,one graduated basic training in the airfare, another from w.c.t.c. as a dental hygienist and another as a machinist from w.c.t.c.

due to the pandemic ,we weren't allowed to celebrate their achievements with other family and friends...Wonderful and heartbreaking at the same time!

Then, our youngest son got married. another wonderful life event but only five people were allowed at the wedding... sad because we have 14 children, plus spouses, and grandchildren plus our daughter in laws side of the family!

It is now 2022, and we are still being held hostage by the "pandemic"......There are vaccine mandates everywhere, families are being divided over the vaccine and the world is in absolute turmoil !!!

I don't know what the future holds, but I do know who does!

God's promises are YES and AMEN !!!!

He is the lover of our souls and the lifter of our heads!

I will stand on His promises and trust Him for His Grace, even in the middle of the muddle!

 Jesus alone is our way maker, promise keeper, light in the darkness! He is the answer! Help me, Lord to be still and know you are God!!!!